Monday, February 9, 2015

Write him into reality

"Why do you love me? I'm such a mess?"
"I love your mess."

Isn't that a wonderful thought? That in the grit and dreariness of life someone could accept and care for us as we are. Whole and complete in all of our flaws. This is something that intrigues me when I write. It is the flaws that makes us who we are. Forget about paradigms or themes, Myths or plot lines. When you write don't forget to add what makes that character truly tick. Why do you like that character? What it is about them that beckons to come across the page and jump to life, even if only within the confines of your own mind? When I write I have to remeber that I am writing first and foremost for myself. This is something I often forget, and often I have let the fear of striking out keep me from playing the game.

"What did you think the first time you saw me?"
"you were the most beautiful girl I had ever saw."

If only movie moments were true and they could be real. I know that you have to make your own magic. No one else is going to do it for you. No one will create sparks in your heart quite the way you yourself do. So i suppose that is why I liked the move Ruby Sparks so much. It sort of expresses that idea I have. So I plant flowers in my own garden and I don't wiat for prince charming to come around, if prince charming even does exist.

I figured it out years ago. I'll just write him into existence. So I did, and He exists in my mind. If only I could have a ruby sparks moment that would be amazing, but I wouldn't write anything else ever to change him. He is perfect in all his flaws just as I have written him. To Jack... I love you emerald knight, always have, always will.